Cebensty!<3

new blog!

2009-08-10T01:09:00.001+08:00

hey! ive shifted! :D

www.redkisses.wordpress.com

its time to change.

2009-08-07T19:28:00.004+08:00

well, skipped school today. like finally ONCE again. slept a little longer and woke up to go JE library to study with Edeline, Shawn and Ben. Met theo & his friend there too. SK was supposed to come but she overslept. so yea. ohwell.

studied quite alot today, like SS. almost finishing the Sec3 book alrdy. however, i was not feeling accomplished enough. wanted to stay on and study more but Ben was tired.. so we headed home instead. x: rar!

as i was on my way home, i felt really upset inside. i jus didnt like how i felt jus now. i was so afraid people would see my eyes being red and all.the song 'Because Of You - CHC' kept 'playing' in my head as i was walking back & it was that time, the minute i step into my house, i started to cry.. i couldnt control myself but i just kept crying. i was rather upset cos i couldnt spend more time with him which i wanted badly.. ): just thinking of the days i wont be able to see him is jus enough to kill me. sigh.

honestly, i didnt like today at all.

sigh. i feel that im really being very selfish towards Ben and its time for me to change myself. i dont want to be who i am now anymore.

happy anniversary~

2009-08-06T22:19:00.002+08:00

this song really makes my heart feel at peace. :)

050409
HAPPY 4TH MONTH DEAREST! :)

lovelove!

2009-08-03T22:27:00.002+08:00

YAY! NEW iPod NANO ! :D im sucha lucky girl! :D new nano, new earphones and new iPod casing! :D really blessed! :D thanks to my 2nd Sister and God :D

was really dying to have one since last year. i waited and waited and waiting till today! :D Weeeeheee! :D i cant discribe my feelings! or should i say, HOW HAPPY I AM! :D weeheheee!

anw! its AUGUST already! D: my gosh! time really flies! D: 3days passed alrdy! and in 2days time its gonna be a special DAY! :D im so excited! :D i wonder whats planned for me!! :D i pray and i really pray that it'll really be a suprise for me :)

Prelims is just next friday! my gosh ): im so so so afraid! theres loads to catch up! D: no more going out till end of prelims! apart from dinner after MTT! :D hahaha. i jus love fellowshiping with my Strikeforce members! :D <3

ps:// love love love love love you baby! :D i cant wait! its our FOURTH MONTH :D!

whatever that has been said;

2009-07-31T17:06:00.002+08:00

life has been really hard for me these few days, i thought it was all moving smoothly but i guess i was wrong.. i still cant find my calling in life, &when i THINK it is 'THE ONE', after awhile, it turns out a NO NO. i feel so confuse.

im trying to hear Him, im trying to communicate with Him & im trying to reach out to Him! BUT! i still cant feel Him, its so near yet so far. i dont know where i should be heading and i dont know what is good for me and whats not good for me! ):

over and over again, the same thing happen.. i really dont know what i should do. talk it out?

ITS REALLY HARD!

do not give up !

2009-07-18T19:38:00.005+08:00

things sure happens for a reason, maybe this is what God wants me to learn and grow from.. cell group last night was indeed comforting. had prayer meeting and i prayed with Wayne, we spoke our hearts out and which its like my so called first time talking to him like really one on one. usually it'll be in a group but yea, we shared things such as school stuff to each other and not having a stand of defence in between to hide all the flaws we have.. it just seemed like we've know each other for a long time.

i felt comfort during worship and God showed me an image of Him with his arms wide open and asking me to walk towards Him and there He will give me rest..theres this verse in the Bible which says,

" Come to Me all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest"
Matt 11:28

after reading this verse, i felt really good and yes! that was all i needed right yesterday! i felt so let to yearn* and to pray even more now.. He was there when i needed Him. He never left me to face a problem which i cant solve it myself. there is no problems biggger than God that He cannot solve it.

The Valley Of Dry Bones - City Harvest Church

listening to the recorded sermon on The Valley of Dry Bones by Pst Kong, it jus kept me thinking and it jus totally 'hit me in the head'. its this thing that he said which is,

'in the point of time when you feel all tired and feel like giving up, jus keep walking, keep praying, keep seeking God..'

in other words, do not give up even though you feel dry and empty inside.. but jus keep praying and seeking God till you find back the fire.

deep in thoughts. than it broke me down.

2009-07-17T14:52:00.002+08:00

sometimes i never wanted to do so much thinking and killing my brain cells so much..den i finally broke down in class today. the thoughts that was running thru my head kept going on and on, it felt like as if it was over. im really afraid to feel like how i felt today, give me no more painful thoughts. i had enough, i need a break.

i feel so exhausted, i really cant handle this.. it feels like as if im not ready at all. i tot i knew it all, but in fact, i dont..didnt expect things to turn out this way but it all had to happen; inevitable in other words. i feel like a failure for a moment, i never get things done right all the time! thats why i had to screw my own life. to know who really i am.

NEGATIVE!
NEGATIVE!!
NEGATIVE!!!

this is so not ME. take my pain away and bring me away from it. lift me up/ pick me up. bring me away...

life is unpredictable

2009-07-16T21:52:00.002+08:00

its been really fun these whole week in school &which means, time flies when youre having fun! :) its good that time passes fast but it sucks when exams are approaching like in a months time! ): so many things to be done but with so little timeeeee! ): rar!

im so excited to say that nxt tues and wed im gonna play netball again! :D &with my friends whom i havent played with for a long time! like yiting, kae shin and jiayan! :D anyone wanna come and watch? hahah. some street netball in Ngee Ann! wootsss. :D and we formed a team with 2guys! jingjie and vincent :D &&&really hope we can win! hahaha. cos very little teams but yea, hope its gonna be really fun! its been long since ive played netball! :D YAYYYY.

i can say sadly that i offically screwed my chinese O level chinese's oral exam yesterday, cos we were like tested on HMT's topic. whereas the others was normal chinese standard ): conver topic was like reguarding Poly Students wearing slippers to school. and i think i went outta point lei! ): cos i brought out an example on the sec students with untidy attire instead of focusing on the slipper issues!): i only realized that after i said thanks to the examiner. like reallys THANKS ALOT !! ): oral was supposed to be the thing to pull my marks for me): RAR! so so so.... urghhh.

yesterday we were like playing chop chilli chop and drinking goggles up game! haha. like mins before oral; man, that just shows how much we care about oral! hahaha. *choychoyyyy!* anw! den we sang, 'ive got peace like a river' with hand actions.. like we all sat in a circle and sang it together :D ohyea! chop chilli chop has a hokkien version! ahhah. hiam jio hiam jio tok tok tok! ahhahah :D its supposed to be tok hiam jio tok hiam jio tok tok tok. !! hahah . but the first one sounds more smooth :D rar! i helped them to translate it though! HAHA. its really hilarious! video's on facebook! :D

today we did something new! and as usual, vincent is the video recorder. :) we did the marriage ceremony! :D Li Jing lao shi and Sarah Lim! hhaha. damn funny. den Jim was like the flower boy! hahah. think Jim was damn funny cos its like suppose to throw the flower thingy upwards, he go throw at the bride(sarah) & the bride's father(me!) hahhaha. den the class was like the witness and theo was the pastor. LOL . joker sia.

i feel so accomplished! like im able to understand the topic MOLE in chem :D haha .like within mins! :D okay lar, at least i was able to do the questions on my own :) rar!

im loving the times of attending school now! :D man, tmr got live broadcast frm the recording room to the internal pa system which they are like trying out. hahah. but den, have to report for duty like 7am! D: rar! ive been like reaching school on the dot and now tell me to reach school at 7am!? D:

im feeling so sick and tired of dnt man, its like as if its sucking my blood up! ): taking up all my time! ): boooooo! (thumbs down!)

&yea, i read one of the newspaper article about this ACS(Barker) guy who has only half a heart, after reading the article, i think his really a brave boy! like his not afraid of the way how people look at him and as his unable to do many things on his own, he still forever stay cheerful! like unlike people who has no disability, they are complaining that everything is jus not enough for them. in the article, there was this that the boy said,

"i wish God could bring me back in my nxt life and with the ability to run, jump etc" ..

man, i think his really a brave guy. &his best friend had nvr thought that, that day when he saw him collecting his IC, would be the last time his seeing him.. like other words, life is unpredictable!

in conclusion, cherish your life and live it to the fullest! :)

heavy laden

2009-07-04T00:47:00.001+08:00

i feel really heavy hearted inside.. i dont want to say so much about it, im trying to let go of the thoughts, but if i choose to ignore it, its gonna hurt even more.

Gig @ JP :)

2009-06-28T01:40:00.003+08:00

it was indeed a great time with the Strikeforce pioneers today (: like a few of them.. went down to help to video cam the gigs. learnt quite a few things today (: after the afternoon gig, Boon drove us dwn to the NDP side.. haha. saw their costume. hahah. :) the overalls dont look like overalls, however its quite nice. compared to their drumline costume. :/

rar, im so dead! havent been studying ): oh man, schools gonna reopen! D:

too much feelings

2009-06-27T02:05:00.003+08:00

sometimes i feel that i kinda lost the feeling of being emo. D: cos too much love that is filling into my heart that drains those emo(s) out of me.

i feel like crying out my thoughts and take it that nothing had happened, like to swallow everything down. however, thats not gonna solve anything! but yet its difficult to say it out. there are times i feel like im taken for granted if not its like, 'thats what you should be doing' that kind of feeling. but i know and trust that it all didnt meant it this way..am i right to say? i dont want to stress anyone here.. im sorry. ):

forgive me for todays post; i jus need a scream!

last week of June holis ):

2009-06-26T03:06:00.003+08:00

25 June 2009 marked the last day of Song of Solomon Church wide Biblestudy. (: it was really a good teaching i feel personally. (: many people were tremendously blessed one way or another (: &yes, i am one!

saw my aunt in church today! but she couldnt recongized me! ): i think its cos i havent seen her for 2years thats why. >:| WHOOPS. hah. anyway! this whole week has been really fun and exciting week for me(: but also made me feel guilty cos i havent been studying): i jus cant stand the engine! D: rar! D: helpppppppppppp~!

had night cycling with nictan, jr, kuan, boyfriend &i on the 160609! :) went many places & it was really fun! (: hah. like we went SG flyer and got chased by the sercurity. D: 210609 had W341 chalet (: 220609 left chalet early and went to siloso beach with some of the SF members :) and 260609 which is today! gonna get my hair TRIMMED & picnic @Marina Barrage in the eveing! :D weeeeeheeeee :)

cant wait! the other time went to hendersons wave for the first time with the some of the sf members, it was really fun! (: hahh. yea, i'll upload one collage! :D

anw! i feel slpy &lazy to post now, so NIGHTS! D: its 3.15am! D:

give us the myrrh.

2009-06-13T17:53:00.003+08:00

finally decided to update my DEAD blog once again. D: hah, like after so long. MAN! anw, havent had the time to come online and surf the internet due to the amount of work i have to do, extra lessons that totally drained me out and also strikeforce trainings the whole of this week.

this is taken in church @JW during one of the Mini Emerge rehersal

update update!

pst ck's REcodeD camp was marvellous! i mean, i was there to perform with Strikeforce but as an 'outsider' jus one look of the campfire night, it seems so fun! D: i wonder when is our Zone camp! D: RAR!

yesterday's BS on Growing Love was indeed a very good msg i can say so far. like the best of the best! whoever who havent got to be there for the BS, man! go check out with your leaders to ask them to share with you about it! it was indeed a msg that applies to many of us here.

today some of my members came over to my place for prayer meeting. though there was only 5 of us, but the Spirit of God and the movement was there. I felt really motivated by the Spirit that His telling me to really fellowship with my members and get to know them more. Casting away the negative thoughts of them and look at them as a whole new person &wanting to bless them even more. after the prayer meeting, somehow i felt less burden, it seemed like the load was totally off my shoulders! man! i felt really GREAT!

(: indeed, with the love of Christ, nothing is impossible with Him! even thru our darkess moments, He'll always be there.. many times when we walk thru the wilderness and people would always think that is the work of the devil, but sometimes, God wants to put us thru this few moments of the wilderness to test us and to grow us inwardly. He'll never put us thru a stage which is difficult for us to handle. He wants us to rely on Him and to seek Him. Amen.

open!

2009-05-16T22:38:00.002+08:00

today went for Dr Cho's service today, it was really a powerful messaged preached and yea! if only we're willing to open, God indeed will fill us on the inside. (:

after service hang-ed around the HARVEST open house with cg members and den headed home with MAG! (: rar, we were like talking about fashion fashion and fashion! D: hahaha. its so nutty! haha. (: mh. for a moment, i cannot figure out what sort of feeling im having now :/ in another words, im confused! i feel so .... "DIAO" that kind of feeling inside. D: whatever!

open your mouth and you shall be fill
AMEN.

2009-05-13T23:31:00.002+08:00

another long week is coming to pass for me, problems after problems.. like what Ben said, its inevitable(should be spelt correctly?) yea, anw.. the thing in my head is really bothering me. i cant help it but to be feeling really emotional about it. its stupid but thats the way my head functions. sigh. i dont know why.

feeling really tired!
):

emotional

happy 1st (:

2009-05-07T22:41:00.005+08:00

HAPPY 1ST MONTH DEAREST! (: RAR. I mean not today but 2days back! (: hope you've enjoyed that day and the gifts i made for you (: RAR! <333

it has been a tough week for me due to exams and the tiredness that i am feeling each morning which i have to wake up reluctantly :/ friends was also one thing that made me mentally drained too.

exams had been tough, like esp Maths and Physics. its was really tough for me ): i totally gave up those paper. D: RAR.

friends;
i dont know why it just have to keep happening over and over again. im kinda really sick of it. dont know why but im like as if im there as your 'friend' to entertain you and for you to laugh at. in a way, i didnt feel that, thats what a friend should be doing yknow. furthermore, theres limits to things like this. out of the few of us, why me? sometimes i really wonder. i felt really hurt in a way and confused.

#1 why is my good friend treating me this way?
#2 did i do anything to provoke you and in return youre doing it back to me?
#3 have you really honestly treated me like a real friend or just a joke to make your day?

this 3qns keeps running in my mind for the past few days and up till now, i still cant find the answer to the 3qns.

all in all, what i wanna do now is to stay neutral and be who i am;

>> really thankful for my boyfriend for being there for me all the time and hearing me rant about my day and consoling me (:

quiz time! :)

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: mineral water from Secret Recipe! :/
2. Last phone call: boyfriend!
3. Last text message: Shu Ting
4. Last song you listened to: mh.. forgot the title D:
5. Last time you cried: last night when i was on the phone :X

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: yes :/ but it was on the verge of breaking up with another alrdy.
7. Been cheated on: yea! like 3-4times? ):
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: YEA.
9. Lost someone special: yes, my grandfather ):
10. Been depressed: Yea
11. Been drunk and threw up: yeap

LIST THREE FAVOURITE COLOURS:
12. Hot pink
13. RED
14. LIME GREEN

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend: yes
16. Fallen out of love: mh. yes
17. Laughed until you cried: yea! haha. few days back
18. Met someone who changed you: certainly and still on going(:
19. Found out who your true friends were: nope
20. Found out someone was talking about you: yes
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: erhh? wad friends list?
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: most of them.
23. How many kids do you want to have: 3!
24. Do you have any pets: terrapin and fish
25. Do you want to change your name: i love my name man!
26. What did you do for your last birthday: worked ):
27. What time did you wake up today: 6am
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: on the phone with BF!
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: Olvls to be over:X
30. Last time you saw your Mother: just.
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: my attitude towards school.
32. What are you listening to right now: AIR(surroundings) hahahha!
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: nope.
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: my mom.
35. Most visited webpage: facebook! my blog!
36. Whats your real name: Ter Ying Ying
37. Nicknames: techno ah soh? D:
38. Relationship Status: attached! (:
39. Zodiac sign: MONKEY!
40. Male or female?: Female
41. Elementary?: Fairfield Methodist Pri Sch
42. Middle School?: Fairfield Methodist Sec Sch
43. High school/college?: -
44. Hair colour: Brownish
45. Long or short: long! :D
46. Height: 166cm
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: dont need to anymore.
48: What do you like about yourself?: for being sporty. haha
49. Piercings: 5, but 2 closed D:
50. Tattoos: nope!
51. Righty or lefty: rightt!

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: nope
53. First piercing: p2?
54. First best friend: Bei Jie Qi
55. First sport you joined: track &field
56. First vacation: mh, thailand(bangkok)
58. First pair of trainers: whats tht? D:

RIGHT NOW
59. Eating: nothing
60. Drinking: nothing (:
61. I'm about to: go for a meal
62. Listening to: nothing.
63. Waiting on: talking to my bf! :)

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids?: yup
65. Get Married?: definately! by 25? :) **HINT to YOUUU**
66. Career?: Navy Offical

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: Eyes
68. Hugs or kisses: Hugs
69. Shorter or taller: Taller
70. Older or Younger: Younger
71. Romantic or spontaneous: Romantic
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: ARMS! no FLABBY ONE PLS!
73. Sensitive or loud: Sensitive
74. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: trouble maker

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: NO!
77. Drank hard liquor: yea, and became drank
78. Lost glasses/contacts: yea
79. Sex on first date: no!
80. Broken someone's heart: yea
82. Been arrested: nope
83. Turned someone down: yea
84. Cried when someone died: yea
85. Fallen for a friend?: yea

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: guess so? if i dont believe in myself, how to survive?
87. Miracles: Yea, believing.
88. Love at first sight: yea
89. Heaven: OF COURSE! Promise Land (:
90. Santa Claus: used to :/
91. Kiss on the first date: nope.
92. Angels: yea!

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: once. *on the verge of breaking up.
95. Did you sing today?: yes.
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: nope
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: i dont want to!
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: none. im happy with what i am now.
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: no longer. (:
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: erhhh :/

the Holy Spirit

2009-05-02T03:38:00.003+08:00

since the MEN(s) are having their MEN(s) conference, the girls are having the girls PM. (: todays PM with the girls was really great (: cos i could sense the POWER of God in the house. every one is trying to build up the atmostphere to enter to the Holy of the Holy. (: after that we break into individual self and did our QT. i felt really great during QT cos God spoke to me as i was sharing my burdens with Him. He also motivated me with a verse from Genesis 15:1 which says,

V1"After these things the word of the Lord came to Abram in a vision saying, "Do not be afraid, Abram. I am your shield, your exceedingly great reward."

i think this verse really moved me in a way not to give up in my studies, the subjects that im weak in.. such as Maths and Humanities.. cos theres nothing impossible with God around (: and whats more, God will guide me thru this exam and i believe so. (:

Having able to pray in the Spirit for 10mins was rather a tiring one but yet after which, i feel really enlighten inside me and it was not as difficult to understand what God is telling me thru the Bible. Just now as i was reading the Word of God, God spoke to me again and He said something about Fasting. like, as you fast, dont be a hypocrite and put on a sad face.. as people are able to tell that you're fasting that kind of things..

BUT..

Matthew 6:17-18
"But you, when you fast, anoint your head and wash your face, so that you do not appear to men to be fasting, but to your Father who is in the secret place; and your Father who sees in secret will reward you openly."

<3

waste of time

2009-04-29T20:17:00.005+08:00

lovin' him is like the best thing i can have on Earth (: its just days till our 1st! :D

QUIZ &followed by POST! :)

1. Is that your natural hair colour?
Yes black is my natural hair colour but its brownish now :)

2. Where was your profile pic taken?
Pandan Reservoir

3. What's your middle name?
Celest?

4. Your current relationship status?
attached to my wonderful BF! :)

5. Honestly, does your crush like you back???
erh? crush? i dont believe in crush.

6. What is your current mood?
mh.. very stress! ):

7. What colour underwear are you wearing?
hahha. orange! *(its so unglam to say it here though!)

8. What makes you happy?
when i can spend time in church with my cell members & with him! :)

9. Are you musically inclined?
not really ):

10. If you could go back in time and change something what would it be?
to pay attention in Maths lesson!

11. If you MUST be an animal for ONE day, what would you be?
Eagle! :) so i can SOAR like one into the SKY!:)

12. Ever had a near death experience?
yes! the car jus ZOOM thru the RED light when i was crossing the road! $^%#@(just kidding on the $^^#@)D:

13. Something you do a lot?
complaining about my day.

14. What's the name of the song stuck in your head right now?
Ministry of Lost Souls

15. Who did you copy and paste this from?
Vincent.

16. Name someone with the same b-day as you?
Latonia, Joseph Thng, Ellery

17. When was the last time you cried?
mh. during cell group?

18. Have you ever sang in front of a large audience?
yea, haha. Love story! and i sang it wrongly cos.. ! ): which resulted in Jason, Ben and all to laugh at me, up till now! ):

19. If you could have one super power what would it be?
mh.. tell the future?

20. What do you notice first off in a guy/girl?
his smile &cute-ness(:

21. What do you usually order from Starbucks?
white choc frapp or green tea frapp w/ java for now? D:

22. What's your biggest secret?
if its a secret den it cant be reviewed! what kind of qn is this!? haha

23. What's your favorite color?
RED GREEN BLACK PINK &abit of YELLOW

24. When was the last time you lied?
last sat; D: to my mom to avoid her naggings :/ *REPENT!

25. Do you still watch kiddy movies or TV shows?
yes! SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS/CRAYON SHINCHAN/TOTALLY SPICES

26. Do you have braces?
nope. (: im happy with straight teeth! :)

27. If you could change one thing about yourself what would it be?
change my hairstyle? :)

28. What are you eating or drinking?
not eating atm! :D

29. Do you speak any other language?
Hokkien. D: but its not fluent! D:

30. What's your favorite smell?
hah. my blanket! hahah.

:) :/

rar! im getting so irritated cos my com is taking so long to load! urghh! ohwell! exam is just in few days time, english and maths paper2 comes first on monday. my goodness! ): maths? ): hais. depressing!

tsk. anw! im happy that i finally got my measurements right for my dnt. managed to finish it in class. (: woooah. :) and its fun during PE today, played abit of badminton and after that got annoyed by theodore cos he keep calling me BITCH(in a joking manner). RAR. den i went to play volleyball with JJ, ahtan, stella, vincent and the rest of them. it was damn fun of cuz! :D den after that had dnt, was trying to find a power point in the classroom to charge my phone. hahah :) den i realized i forgot to bring my 2pin plug, but thanks to AGT, he helped me with the charger plug, den it was finally in! HAHA. (: rar. yea, thats really for today. D:

im finding english lessons nowadays are really a total waste of time. cos shes like taking up majority of the time to laugh, talk about things that arent related and also! shes like talking to the front of the class people only! everytime it jus seemed like it was just another free period. im so hating english now! D: can she realize the urgency? lack of time left till O's? we need help!

in life, we jus to..

SWALLOW IT DOWN.

be strong girl!

1, 2, 3, 4

2009-04-27T23:50:00.002+08:00

its SS exam today! RAR. (: really thank God for guiding me thru this exam. (: &thank God for giving me the right choice to study most on. i totally neglected the chapter on healthcare and went on to the chapter on globalisation. hahah. (: it was really good. &there is 2 parts to globalistaion, which was the IMPACT & the other 5 thingy, which i forgot. but yea, i only studied IMPACT. hahah. (: IMPACT came outttt! (: WEEEE! i hope i will at least get a B grade (:

after school went to meet BF @ ACJC to wait for JiaJun to get Ruey Jer's psp and headed to WCPlaza's starbucks to study. it was rather productive today (: rar. i did some work! (:

i tried to do maths but i still cant do it. ): it was rather depressing and i ended up giving up on it. ): booooo. the question seemed so easy but it wasnt at all. damnn. i need to work hard! i need to work hard! ):

rar. i feel super lazy now. RAR. BB! :D

theres only one thing two do three words four you.
i love you.
(i love you)
theres only one way two say those three words
and that's what i'll do.
i love you.
(i love you)

2009-04-26T23:48:00.002+08:00

Ben here, I wanna do a quiz too! :D

If you enjoyed your primary school years, you'll do it.
If you have nothing else to do, you'll do it.
If you're here to read the questions/answers and pretend to hate to do it, deep down you'll still do it.

This tag is so fun because the answers can go on and on.
Read if you miss your PRIMARY school years.

1) Which school did you go to?
Anglo Chinese School (Primary)

2) What classes were you in?
1F, 2F, 3B, 4B, 5C, 6B.

3) What was/were your favourite lesson(s)?
PE, Computer.

4) If you could remember, what time was your recess?
Like 10?

5) List down your favourite food/snacks.
Some biscuit thing, chee cheong fun, mixed rice!

Style
1) Did you have a nickname way back in primary school?
Not really.

2) How did you wear your socks?
Above ankle hehe.

3) Have you been suspended due to the way you put on your uniform?
No.

4) Were you given plenty of reminders about your appearance?
Not that much, haha.

5) Who did you look up to when you were in primary school?
Zach (LOL) for the first few years.

Punishment

1) Name one memorable scene where you were punished in front of the whole class.
Chinese class. I was taller than the teacher.

3) Give one scene where you escaped from being caught/punished.
Can't remember, rar.

4) Did you vandalize any school property
YES LOL. Got sent to the principal ;0

5) Did you ever make any teacher cry?
Primary 1/2. The whole class did, hehe.

6) Who was your favourite teacher?
Ms Pearly something. Can't remember.

7) Describe your DM..
What's DM.

8) Who was the funniest/weirdest/loudest teacher?
Diana Tay?

Social Circle

1) Were you popular back then?
So-so.

2) Were you in a big group of boys/girls or small ones?
Small.

3) Who were your best friends?
Nobody.

4) Did you and your friends have nicknames?
Nope.

5) What were your favourite memories of you and your friends?
Playing catching under the clocktower!

Co-curricular Activities

1) What type of CCA were you in?
Swimming :)

2) What did you have to bring to your CCA?
Trunks?

3) What did your CCA required you to do?
Swim?

4) Got injured?
Nope.

Crushes/Lovers

1) Who was your first crush?
HAHAHA OMG. Kindergarten 2, name's Rachel. She was a little ang-moh. Hahaha!

2) Are you in good terms with your last crush?
Don't talk anymore.

3) Did you ever had a relationship with anyone in your primary school?
All-guys school :)

4) Have you ever made out in school?
All-guys ._.

Closing Ceremony.
1) How did primary school changed you?
Made me realize I can actually score pretty well in exams.

2) Sing one verse of your school song.
Sing A.C.S, forevermore?

3) What was your favourite question?
WHY?

4) Who/what will you remember from your primary school?
Kelvin Lim >_>

5) Any memories you will not forget.
No, sec school was much better.

quiz.

2009-04-26T20:01:00.003+08:00

i cabbed to church today D: RAR! tot i was late for BS, but it only started at 1030 D: so yea, spent $7 bucks on cab. D: BS was good today! Service was too! (: RAR.anyway, i dont really feel like blogging today but mayb a quiz?

Have you thought about an ex today?
not. why would i?

Where is the person who has your heart at the moment?
his at home

When's the last time you said you were fine, but really weren't?
just.

Who did you spend your summer with last year?
mhm... ??

Do you have an older brother?
yes

Does your last ex have a job?
no

Do you believe in karma?
mhm. i guess so?

What mood are you in right now?
a rather complicated feeling. confused?

Is your room ever clean?
erh. its always messy no matter how much i tried to clean

Has anyone put their arms around you in the past 5 days?
yes.

Who was the last person in your room?
my 2nd sister

Where did your last hug take place?
at my house void deck

How many kids do you want to have?
2 or 3 is enough

Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
not really.

Is your last ex still someone you care about?
no.

Who was the last person to make you laugh?
kezia yee!

Who is the first person you would go to if you had a problem?
my boyfriend

Do you have any plans for this week?
want to study at starbucks again!

Are you close with your siblings?
not really

How did you feel when you woke up today?
i feel tired but cant wait to go church!

Are you a bad influence?
mh. NO! (: i make people laugh (:

Does your best friend have a myspace?
good question.. i didnt bother to ask.

Do you and your friends have code words for things?
nope

When is the last time you had butterflies?
hahah? what kind of question is tat.?

What's your relationship with the person you last texted?
ben ong! my loveee (:

Is there anyone you know that deserves to get slapped?
certainly. slap to make him wake up his ideas!

Honestly whats on your mind?
my boyfriend<3

Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel?
NO! thats so cheapskate! D: haha. but if the shampoos all smells nice why not? (:

Is it more common for you to follow your heart or your mind?
mh, my heart.

When was the last time you laughed REALLY hard?
today?

Are you sarcastic?
Depends.

Do people ever mistake you for being a different race?
no.

Are looks everything?
no.

Are you tall?
yes

Are you afraid of losing the last person you talked to?
yes. certainly.. ):

Is anything bothering you?
yes.

Is there someone that makes you happy every time you see them?
yes. (:

Are you missing anyone?
im missing him even now!

What was your last thought before you went to bed last night?
what will happen today.

Have you made any new regrets this year?
yes..for not concentrating in class.

When's the last time you had a headache?
this morning

How do you feel right now?
im feeling sad.

Does anyone call you baby?
yes;

Would you rather date someone with an english accent or an irish accent?
english!

Is there anything that you are craving for right now?
nope.

What are you most anxious/excited for?
nothing.

Will you talk to the person you like tonight?
yes. i am doing it right now

Would you be able to date someone who doesn't make you laugh?
if he doesnt make me laugh, i will make him laugh with me (:

What was the first thing you thought of this morning?
what should i wear today?

What color shirt are you wearing?
yellow & white.

Do you have a reason to smile right now?
no?

What do you do when you need to relax?
jus STONE at something.

If you won a lot of money in the lottery, what would you buy first?
i will pay off my debts and be debt free ! 'cos God wants His children to be free from debts!

Do you open up to people easily?
yep, if they are open to me, i would do the same.

Have you ever called a person useless?
haha. in a joking manner, yes. O:

Did you cry at all today?
nope.

Do you listen to your friends advice when they give it to you?
yes.

Do you get distracted easily?
certainly!

Have you ever been attracted to someones parent?
hahha. NO! i dont go for OLD ppl! ahha. whats more, my friends parents? -.-

Do you think you've changed over the past year?
indeed!

Will you be in bed in the next 20 minutes?
nope.

Do you currently have a hickey ?
whats tat? D:

When did you last eat chinese food?
in the afternoon, after church

Do you have a friend that you can literally run to their house at 3 in the morning?
nope.

When you buy something and your change is 2 cents, you keep it or tell them to keep it?
haha. theres no more 2cents in Singapore!

Are you happy?
now i am, (: cos.....

Do you like the color green?
yes! (:

Dear God,
teach me and lead me.

17 AGAIN! (:

2009-04-26T02:31:00.002+08:00

guess you'll be probably wondering why am i still online at sucha late night? let me tell you why! its all thanks to DNT! ): sucks. duno why am i in this course, its so man's job can! ): oh well, must do well in this to get into poly that i want to go & also the course! rar!

today was a super great day for me! (: its my first time out with my lovee! (: like as in first time in my whole life with the guy whom i love manymany!(: hahah! we met like late evening today den went to watch 17 again! (: its a nice show, i almost cried though. HAHA. (: i love going out with him! (: RAR. <333

came home late and got scolded ): mom knows about my bf alrdy. got scolded like... as usual? but didnt really bothered and didnt talk back, cos i knw if i ever do talk back this time round, i'll most probably get kicked outta house or get a good scolding + confiscation of phone. D: i should get a pre-paid card soon man! RAR! den when i sms my mom wont scold. RAR! X: mom was like, if u wanna be with a guy, i have conditions one okay! RAR. ohya! she said something like, "are you too eager to get married soon or what? better behave urself outside" good graciouss D: RAR ):

but what matters to me now is that i must lay low these few days and yea. study hard! prove to my mom that bf is helping me in my studies also! he aint a distraction to me (:

its not the matter of winning the game,
but the matter of how you play the game..

<3

2009-04-26T01:21:00.002+08:00

Really really reallyyyyyyyyyyyyy tired. So I'll just do a quiz instead of describing my wonderful day.

ABC About You Questions:
A - AVAILABLE: No.
B - BIRTHDAY: 22 Dec 1992.
C - CRUSHING ON: Crushcrushcrush.
D - DRINK YOU LAST HAD: Iced water.
E - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO: Ruey Jer or Ben Tan?
F - FAVORITE SONG: So many right now!
G - GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS: None.
H - HOMETOWN: Singapore.
I - IN LOVE WITH: Yingying:)
J - JUGGLE: CAN! A bit :D
K - KILLED SOMEONE: On CS, Dota, WoW and ...
L - LONGEST CAR RIDE: The one to Genting?
M- MILKSHAKE FLAVOR: Chocolate!
N - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS: 1.
O - ONE WISH: Wants to be successful.
P - PERSON YOU CALLED LAST: Yingying.
R- REASON TO SMILE: You.
S - SONG YOU LAST HEARD: Disco - Metro Station
T - TIME YOU WOKE UP: 10+am
U - UNDERWEAR COLOR/PATTERN: Teal, no pattern.
V - VEGETABLE(S): The long bean thingy but shorter?
W - WORST HABIT: Slouching? ):
X - X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD: None.
Y – YOYOS ARE: Primary school.
Z - ZODIAC SIGN: Sagittarius, Capricon.

Random Questions About You:
Spell your name without vowels: Bnjmn
What color do you wear most?: Black, white, red, blue, grey?
Least favorite color?: Turquoise/purple.
What are you listening to?: Nothing at the moment.
Are you happy with your life right now?: Pretty much :]
What is your favorite class in school?: E-maths -_-
When do you start back at school/college?: Monday :(
Are you outgoing?: To a certain extent.
Favorite pair of shoes?: Err, idk.
Where do you wish you were right now?: Asleep.

THE CANS:
Can you dance?: ROBOT! :D
Can you tie a cherry stem with your mouth?: Never tried.
Can you whistle?: Yes.
Write with both hands?: Sort of, haa.
Walk with your toes curled?: Ye ye.

THE DO'S:
Do you believe there is life on other planets?: Mmmm, yes and no :/
Do you believe in miracles?: Yeahh.
Do you believe in magic?: Err, if what Jesus did was magic then yeah.
Love at first sight?: No.
Do you believe in Satan?: I believe that there is one.
Do you believe in Santa?: Never did.
Do you know how to swim?: Yessirrrr.
Do you like roller coasters?: Can't remember when I last sat on one so I can't answer thisss.
Do you think you could handle the stuff they eat on those reality shows?: No, lol.

THE HAVES:
Have you ever been on a plane?: Yeah.
Have you ever asked someone out?: Yupyup.
Have you ever been asked out by someone?: Yaa.
Have you ever been to the ocean? Ye.
Have you ever painted your nails?: Ye.

THE WHATS:
What is the temperature outside?: I don't know but it's darn hot.
What radio station do you listen to?: Usually power 98.0. Haha.
What was the last restaurant you ate at?: Fast food restaurant? KFC :D
What was the last thing you bought?: Green Tea.
What was the last thing on TV you watched?: Hell's Kitchen.

THE WHOS:
Who was the last person you IM'd?: Yingying.
Who was the last person you took a picture of?: Yingying, Ruey Jer and I.
Who was the last person you said I love you to?: Yingying.

CRYING SECTION:
Ever really cried your heart out?: Yeah :x
Ever cried yourself to sleep?: Don't know. I don't remember much when I wake up. Haha!
Ever cried on your friend's shoulder?: Neh.
Ever cried over the opposite sex?: Yesss :/
Do you cry when you get an injury?: Eh, that was kindergarten.
Do certain songs make you cry?: Last time I think.
HAPPY SECTION.
Are you a happy person?: Yeah I guess!
What can make you happy?: Ben Sherman stuff, and that Domo shirt in HMV! Rarrrr M-size pls kthx.
Do you wish you were happier?: Who wouldn't?
Can music make you happy?: Yup :D
LOVE SECTION.
How many times have you had your heart broken?: Eh, don't know.
Have you ever loved someone so much that you'd die for them?: Prolly.

LOOK AT ME.
What is your current hair color?: Brown!
Current piercings?: Left ear.
Have any tattoos?: No.
Eye color?: Brown.

IN A BOY/GIRL:
Favorite eye color: I don't know.
Short or long hair: Long is good.
Height: Just not taller than me harhar.
Best clothing: Whatever looks good on her?

HAVE YOU EVER
Been to jail: No.
Mooned someone: No ;)
Ran away from home: For a few hours LOL.
Laughed so hard you cried: Yeah!
Cried in school: Yes.
Thrown up in a store: Not exactly in a store.
Done something really stupid that you still laugh at today: Prolly, can't remember what though.
Gonne skinny dipping: Nope.

THIS OR THAT
Pepsi or Coke: Coke.
McDonald's or Burger King: Macs.
Single or Group Dates: Doesn't matter.
Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate.
Strawberries or Blueberries: Blueberry!
Meat or Veggies: Meat.
TV or Movie: Movie.
Guitar or Drums?: DRUMS DRUMS ♥
Adidas or Nike: Right now, it's 50/50.
Chinese or Mexican: Chinese. (lol i read chicken)
Cheerios or Corn Flakes: Doesn't matter.
Cake or Pie: Cake!
MTV or VH1: MTV!

Ben signing off :)

2009-04-24T01:43:00.003+08:00

Hello, posting for my most awesomest gf again :D
Since she's prolly having her beauty sleep right now, I shall do her a favour by blogging for thursdaaaay. Which is like yesterday/today. Ahhh, haha.

Okay, so I believe both of us worked pretty hard in school today! :D Met after school, then headed down to West Coast Macs! Getting kinda bored with macs :/ Yeah. Anyway, today was not productive at all! I'm so sorry, bleahhhh. I was hooked onto DJ Max, Ruey Jer and I were also talking and talking and talking D: sorry baby!

Yup after that we just went to play with the swing thingy, haha! Man the only thing Ruey Jer and I remembered about West Coast Park is that playground. It all happened during the school's annual x county event :D I remember we all went around ji siao-ing the prefects, and they sure had a hard time keeping us off the playgrounds! Haha! Anyway yuppp, played for awhile before Ruey Jer had to go :)

So! Have fun tomorrow dearest! You know why ;) Rar, I'll be so tired after my event >___> if I could, I'd rather not swim srsly. Wew. Okaaay, haha.

Anyway I've uploaded the pictures of the dog show on facebook. And extra stuff ;)

Signing off!
Good night ♥

SIGNS

2009-04-21T23:04:00.003+08:00

joshua ang intro-ed me this youtube video, he said it was nice. (: indeed it was.. ahha (: it was rather boring at the start 'cos i didnt know what it was about. but yup! i know it now! hahah (:

watch it!

today was another usual day for me, a boring one i can say. failed my maths test again ): depressed! i feel like giving up somehow ): tsk. but w/o maths where can i go? ): arrhhh! study study study hard!

anw, i hope boyfriend<3 wouldnt feel upset about his comp results! D: well, although got dq, but still.. at least he made an effort (: rar! its better den not even going at all! (: but still, well done! <3 i'll always support you! no matter if its good or bad! (: <3

<3

smiles!

2009-04-21T00:34:00.003+08:00

Hellohello, posting for ying ying since I want her to sleep :).

Okay! So we went to Starbucks @ West Coast Plaza to study today!
I did physics, and she did... SS and history? Yaaa. :D

Anywho, so guess what? I saw my prefect master in SB too! That means he didn't go to school today! Mmmmm, haha. Then then then, Ying ying and I also saw Pastor Derek! So cool can. Haha! Okay, then we had to lookout for powerpoint connections, or at least more comfortable seats lol.

Summarizing everything up, I believe we all really studied quite a bit today :) (Finally, I did a different subject. Haha!) She studied more than me too okay, like yeah. So proud of her ;) rar, aha!

Okay so for breaks, we took turns to play DJ Max, lolol. I managed to complete two XCs before the batt ran out! Yay. Getting RJ's PSP soon, I wanna plaaaaaaaaaay. Rarar. Ohohoh.

I wanna take this special opportunity to thank her for spending time with me all the time! At least I'm assured that you don't feel as if you're wasting your time with me :) I love you ♥

Goodnight, sweet dreams baby! :D ♥♥♥

P.S. Hey love, I checked your older blogs and people have just "found it" .___. Hehe, go check it out sometime :)

LOVE

2009-04-18T22:57:00.002+08:00

i didnt do well for chinese mye this time round i guess. ): didnt finish both my paper 1 and 2. it feels like crap after the exam ): booo!

ohwell, i didnt do much today, after exam went home eat and nxt went to bed. feeling so tired nowadays. staying up late aint good for me ): i need to re-schedule my slping time again! RAR. DNT folio is due nxt week, i need to chiong!):

dearest went for Dog show competition with his mummy today, he sounded bored. ): sooo... ahhaha. i didnt wanted him to feel even more bored, so i decided! instead of texting him, why not call him! hahah :) RAR.! :) BF<3 ! i wanna see poodle pics! hahahah! (:

yesterday he offered to wait and send me home, i was really tired by then when i met up with him at JE. jus wanna say thanks again (: rar! like really, though knowing that when im tired im lazy to talk alot alot like usual but still.. (: hahah. i duno how to complete the sentence! <3 but all i wanna say is, i REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY love my BF! (: ohoh! i rmb sharing with him about my problems yesterday, i really feel at ease after that (: like he comforted me and yea. (: so thanks thanks thanks BF! (: ii lurbbe euus! haHAHAHAH! *its been long since i used that for blogging*

&AH LIM AR! haha. shes so disgusting can! she was like telling me she bought her *HAMBURGER* alrdy! and shes really happy about it! HAHAHA. &&&! shes damn SICKO i tell you. yknow what! she said she wanna take her *HAMBURGER* and rub it on my face one day. den i was like, WHAT THEEEE~! yuck. haha. shes seriously disgusting can! D: RAR!

to my most lovely boyfriend! :)

L, is for the way you LOOK at me
O is for the only one I see
V is very, very extraordinary
E is even more than anyone that you adore can

Love is all that I can give to you
Love is more than just a game for two
Two in love can make it
Take my heart and please dont break it
Love was made for me and you

I love you! <3

18/04/09

2009-04-18T01:55:00.003+08:00

Hehe Ben here! Gonna do a quiz before I sleep :)
Helping Ying Ying to blog okaaay :D ♥

Starting time: 1.55am

Name: Ben Ong

Sisters: 1

Brothers: 0

Eye Color: Brown/Hazel

Shoe size: 10-11

Hair: Tad bit of brown I guess.

Piercings: 1 ;)

Height: 181cm! :D

What are you wearing right now? Boxers myahaha.

Where do you live? Singapore.

Favorite number: 7.

Favorite drink: None in particular.

Favorite month: December.

Favorite breakfast: No favourites.

***********Have You Ever***********

Broken a bone: No.

Been in a police car: No.

Been on a plane: Yes.

Been in a hot tub: Yeeee.. I don't know ):

Swam in the ocean: Harhar yes!

Fallen asleep in school: Yup :)

Broken someone’s heart: Errrr think so.

Cried when someone died?: Not yet.

Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: HMMM. Prolly :D

Saved e-mails: Nope, haha.

Been cheated on: Guess not.

***********What is************

Your room like? Messy.

What is right beside you? CPU, mug, mum's glasses, phone.

What is the last thing you ate? Chicken rice!

———————-Ever Had-————————-

Chicken pox: Yes.

Sore throat: Yes.

Stitches: No.

Broken nose: No.

————————-Do You————————–

Believe in love at first sight? Not exactly.

Like picnics: Never tried. I hope it's not too hot though ):

————————–Who—————————

Did you last yell at? Mum :x

Was the last person you danced with? Like really dance? Idk.

Who last made you smile? Ying ying ♥

Do you wear contact lenses or glasses? Glasses!

———-Final Questions————-

What are you listening to right now? Never Stop - Hilary Duff.

What did you do today? Slack in school, dental, cell group! Spent time with her nyahaa <3

Diamond or pearl? Diamond.

Are you the oldest? Youngest.

Indoors or out doors? Depends, most of the time indoors.

——————Today did you———————-

1. Talk to someone you like? YES!

2. Kiss anyone? Yeeeeah.

3. Get sick? Still kinda sick :/

4. Sing? Har har praise and worship :D

5. Talk to an ex? Nuh.

6. Miss someone: Yes. ):

7. Eat: But I'm still hungry >:(

—————-Last person who——————

8. You talked to on the phone? Eh.. Yu Jie.

9. Made you cry? Can't remember.

10. Went to the movies with? Oh man. The Fish Tank Gang?

11. You went to the mall with? Mum :]

——————Have you——————-

19. Been to Mexico? No :/

20. been to USA? No -_-

——————-Random——————–

21. Have a crush on someone? I wouldn't call this a crush.

22. What books are you reading right now? Ahh, cancelled all book readings!

23. Best feeling in the world? Being loved.

24. Future kids names? Heh, Joshua? ;)

25. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? Nope.

26. What’s under your bed? Dogs.

27. Favorite sport(s) to watch? Neh.

28. Favorite place? Somewhere cosy!

32. Who do you really hate? Mohana.

33. Do you have a job? I'mma student!

37. What time is it now? 2.04am.

Okaaaay, sweet dreams dearest! <3

confession !

2009-04-16T23:31:00.002+08:00

man! i had a bad dream last night! i dreamt that i got assassinated by a bad guy with a sniper and all. D: RAR ! lazy to type the full detail but yea, so i woke up instantly and msged Ben about it and the weird thing is, after i sent out the msg, i fell back into my lala land again. hahahha! D: RAR. but it was really nice of him to call me yknow! like which guy would do that? probably they'll jus say, "aye, jus a dream only" right!? like i bet many girls would agree with me! :) hahaha.RAR, to conclude! his really caring! (:

i gave up on maths paper today, i realized i was studying the wrong chapter.. studied so hard on completing the square, i ended up still not knowing how to do. vectors was unexpectedly so challenging. so its like out of the 7 or 8qns, i only did like a bit here and there. i guess i can barely get 5marks out of 40! D: *DANNNGGGG*

ohwell! Chong was complaining after maths paper during eng period, it was so annoying and i told him to shut up. like telling him nicely before that did not seemed to make him feel at ease, like its no point grieving over it now. like yea. just study harder more. Xander was like planning to start a study clan thingy! hahah. he was like advertising in the class, it was really funny if u were there at the scene. RAR.

Ms Goh saw my facial expression in class and asked if i was okay and encouraged me to not feel sad over it. hahha. den i was like thinking, since when i said i was sad over it. i was just tired !! D: RAR. TSKTSK. but shes a really caring but weird teacher though! AHHAHA. cos she can scold and the nxt second POP OUT with a SMILE on her face! hahahah.

RAR!

i met up with boyfriend today after school (: sent him to p4 training den headed home. to be honest, i really enjoy being with him and also when his around. RAR! he can crap like anything but i still love him ! hahahha (: RAR! i love my boyfrienddddd~! <3

confession

<3

16/04/09

*counting down 1day to chinese mid year exam*

results of having sleepy morning

2009-04-15T22:04:00.003+08:00

HEYHEY! im back blogging today! RAR! wanna thank my boyfriend for being sucha nice guy to blog for me! ahhah (:

today was a really sleepy day for me! RAR! i fell down at the backgate today! it was so unglam can! i shocked my left ankle and till now it still hurts, i could barely walk properlyn now. ): but rar! hahah.

anyway, had real fun during photo taking today! hahah. the class photo was really cool i can say! (: they carried mark lin and made him like floating and all! hahah. den his shoes was being taken off and then some of my classmates were kicking his shoes from the photo taking spot to the exit of the hall. HAHA!

after school went for netball photo taking den after that meet up with boyfriend and Ruey Jer (: ate at KFC was really funny! ahha. talked about the smooth meat of the chicken RA RA! hahah. den bus-ed down to JE library to study! (: haha. thanks nanny ruey jer and boyfriend for teaching me these few days! :) RAR.

i really appreciate my boyfriend really really! hahah (: && really thank him for introducing to me his friends (: like it really shows that his really proud of me (: hahha! *self praise is no praise!* <3

i love GOD &my BF! :D <3

thankful heart

<3

15/04/09

*counting down! 3days to MT mid-year paper*

2009-04-15T00:33:00.000+08:00

heyhey :) went to meet ben's friends today :) studied together too! yay, had a lot of fun :) okay actually this is ben so it's so weird trying to blog as ying ying! So from my perspective, today was really fun yeah. I actually studied so i think it was productive! And not forgetting the finger soccer game. Haha! Okay this is really hard to blog since my own blog is really dead. Anyway, i love my girlfriend very much! <3 yay nights baby :)

MTT cum BBQ @ ECP :)

2009-04-13T16:47:00.005+08:00

yesterday's mtt was really fun! HAH. went ECP for MTT till 6pm and BBQ till night! :) it was really fun and i learnt alot of things during MTT! the agogo bell(if its spelt like that) and all the other small props. spinning the drumsticks too! ahhaha. i really wanna like be the best drummer i can ever be if its possible! :) practise makes perfect i guess! HAHA. Boon taught us how to lock our sight and hearing to the time keeper as it is a key factor for a band to play nice and yea, really nice! :) it was really a learning point for me. BBQ was alright, food was nice! but haha, ate very little cos the food was gone in a flash man! hahaha, the beef and satay was really good :) <3 i love BEEF! i love my BOYFRIEND! <3 AHHAHA. *i bet if he sees this he'll be blushing!* HAHAHA! ohwell! overall, it was really FAB! :)

Strikeforce Creed 1!

ONE BAND! ONE SOUND! :)

CHEERO'S!

it was so that i was really reluctant to wake up this morning as i had a very cool dream i supposed? haha. but i cannot really remember what it was about, so ohwell! :P

the moment when i stepped into backstage in the morning today, i was still thinking of methods of outreaching to my friends.. like what else can i do to reach out to them? pray,pray and pray? what else? is there like other ways? sigh..

anyway!it was to my surprise that im having chinese full paper exam this coming sat! ): my goodness! RAR. its like madness! from morning 0745-1245!! like if im not wrong 5hrs of CHINESE? ): 1hr was bad enough, now you're giving me 5hrs? RAR! basically, i cant really remember what did i do exactly today, it seemed like my brain memory is getting smaller and smaller ): someone get me a bigger memory card? 16GB? hhhah! RAR! :O

my bf is really good to me! haha <3
i cant stop falling in love with him! <3 - if u know the song! HAHA

assurance

13/04/09

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was it a challange?

2009-04-11T22:49:00.002+08:00

I didnt know what God is expecting me to do. I couldnt find any reason why time after time God is putting me in a position that i have to face difficult situations.

Today wasnt a really good day for me, i was so much excited and looking forward that alvin and jon would come but again, another disappointment.. after the 3.30pm service at JW, headed down to Expo. On my way down, i was still wondering if i should go for service.. I was on the train and i went all the way down till tanah merah, sat at the station for around 20mins and was thinking if i should go or not go. since i'll be alone and no one would be there. ohwell, after phone-ing Ben, i decided to go back. On the train back, i was thinking why is God doing this to me again and again. I couldnt understand why. I felt really upset inside me and at any point in time i could just tear. i cant exactly discribe the feeling.

Ben was assuring me about what he think God is trying to teach me, i've got to agree with that..cos only with trails and tribulations, will help one self to grow stronger in Christ.

i'm loving my boyfriend more and more each day<3

11/04/09

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Relationship with God

2009-04-11T01:32:00.003+08:00

Indeed God did not short change me in anyway.

I haven't gave up till the last minute of outreaching to my friends. I'm not sure how my friends will feel about me as i keep asking them if they wanna come, and somehow they might find me irritating, but what i feel is that God will not shortchange me as i believe that my friends will find me irritating now but yea.. someday they would understand how i really feel about the importance of having a relationship with God.

from the time i was heading down to je station to meet my members and after that to church, i was texting alvin and still trying to outreach to him and also jon. after all the sms-es, alvin showed some hope to me cos he was like saying he might come for sat night service. (: i feel so good yknow! :) like my efforts and faith are paid off. jus like having faith in God, He'll never shortchange me :) RAR!

told Rachel about Ben already and yea, it wasnt as bad as i thought it would.. like yup. really thank God for a leader that really cares and advices on us. (: Thanks to God! Ben<3 has been really good to me and he taught me alot and helped me to grow Spiritually too. i'm really proud to have him as my bf and i'm willing to overcome all things not jus by myself but together with him! <3 (:

after service was on the way home with Ben<3, we were somewhat talking about what Rachel said to us, like to know our priorities and also like not let this relationship come between our relationship with God. which i really got to agree to this, cos without God, i wouldn't have known Ben and without God, i wouldn't have grown strong in my christian life. so like i said, having a relationship with God is really important. yupp. :)

i really hope tmr's service would be a better one, alvin and jon would come for service too! :)

11/04/09

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Easter'09

2009-04-10T02:08:00.002+08:00

Its Good Friday today! So here's out to all Christians on Earth! HAPPY GOOD FRIDAY! :)

it's been a rather intensive week for me the whole of this week, outreaching, prayer conference, p4 training, school.. etc! RAR! i made a stand to not use my phone in class and to be attentive and no sleeping and i'm really glad i did what i had wanted to do! :) i'm so proud of myself! :) RAR! haha..

i've been outreaching to my PA crews and my good friend. however, after many weeks and days of confirmation, it was to my disappointment that my good friend could not make it for the services after many weeks of outreaching.. and yea. i was rather discouraged and i felt rather disappointed at myself. like a failure in a way, i know it's not about bringing in the number of people.. it's the heart of the people, willingly to accept God into them, confessing the love that God has been giving them..

however, i really Thank God for not forsaking me in times like this as He has sent His many little angels to encourage me not to give up hope and not to be discouraged as God sees the hearts of His servants. The number of harvest is not an issue but what matters most is He is able to see His servants putting in effort and running the race with Him.

Ben was sharing with me over the phone about the story that Pst Scanlon has shared during one of his sermons.. something about choosing the people to bring in to the Kingdom of God.. like why should we choose the people we want to to come to church? why not let everyone come in? yea, it really made me ponder alot even up till now. my conclusion to this is really, we shouldn't choose the type of people whom we want to come into the Kingdom of God, but to welcome everyone into His House and enjoy His Presence together :)

Kezia, Francis, Rachel and my lovely CG W341.. were also the few angels God had sent me. They both told me not to be discouraged as it might be the start of God's challenge to me. &yup, we should not jus outreach only on special occasions but daily :) yuppp.

Just wanna thank all of you for not neglecting me and praying for me :) i really appreciate it! :)

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10/04/09