was it a challange?
I didnt know what God is expecting me to do. I couldnt find any reason why time after time God is putting me in a position that i have to face difficult situations.

Today wasnt a really good day for me, i was so much excited and looking forward that alvin and jon would come but again, another disappointment.. after the 3.30pm service at JW, headed down to Expo. On my way down, i was still wondering if i should go for service.. I was on the train and i went all the way down till tanah merah, sat at the station for around 20mins and was thinking if i should go or not go. since i'll be alone and no one would be there. ohwell, after phone-ing Ben, i decided to go back. On the train back, i was thinking why is God doing this to me again and again. I couldnt understand why. I felt really upset inside me and at any point in time i could just tear. i cant exactly discribe the feeling.

Ben was assuring me about what he think God is trying to teach me, i've got to agree with that..cos only with trails and tribulations, will help one self to grow stronger in Christ.

i'm loving my boyfriend more and more each day<3

11/04/09

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