deep in thoughts. than it broke me down.
sometimes i never wanted to do so much thinking and killing my brain cells so much..den i finally broke down in class today. the thoughts that was running thru my head kept going on and on, it felt like as if it was over. im really afraid to feel like how i felt today, give me no more painful thoughts. i had enough, i need a break.

i feel so exhausted, i really cant handle this.. it feels like as if im not ready at all. i tot i knew it all, but in fact, i dont..didnt expect things to turn out this way but it all had to happen; inevitable in other words. i feel like a failure for a moment, i never get things done right all the time! thats why i had to screw my own life. to know who really i am.

NEGATIVE!
NEGATIVE!!
NEGATIVE!!!

this is so not ME. take my pain away and bring me away from it. lift me up/ pick me up. bring me away...